Oh. I hate being speechless. I’m really not the type that shuts up. I let my brains out all the time. And maybe this time, words have consumed me instead the other way around.  I hate being in this scene where I have nothing else to do, except go with the flow. Because if I do anything, I just might be hurt again. And I hate getting hurt and just shut up. That’s not me. I’m not really emotional or expressive or a whinner. I am a public person but for now, I’m just gonna shut up. Just for now. I just wanna be normal for once and let my guard down. That I am human, and it’s a human thing to be hurt and not to be hard core all the time. If I could just bring back the time which I really can’t, I would have been stronger and better. And to not always be here for you. You used me. You made me make myself to love you which I never really plan to do.

I think I’m gonna stop now. Stop being manipulated by you. Stop saying yes to you. And maybe stop loving you. Until then, I’m still gonna be haunted by those memories you left. And everytime I think of you, remember it doesn’t always bring back feelings. Just memories. And I must say, memories are nice but that’s all  they are. Just memories.

Do I make sense? I try to connect all the dots but I’m just so random right now. No editing,no backspaces at all. This is so new for me. And I hope I’ll be someone new. A better one. :)

to:E.

From:K. <3